grace all over again.

im recently relearning grace.

its talked about often, practiced less.

i spent some significant time with the subject in high school, and i remember it well.
and i guess its time for me to go back there again.

i mean, i through the word around all the time like nothing
but thats different then living and experiencing it.

i listen to this sermon the other day on the train
about how God meets us in the midst of our turmoil and struggle for Him.
about how He sits with us as we fight with ourselves over what to do with our time and money and relationships.
about how He loves us for exactly who we are as we are, nothing more, nothing less.
how He blesses our absence of perfection and understanding
how He loves the desire, not just the action or achievement

and it was the most wonderful and freeing news i have heard in a long long time.

how many hours and days do i waste contemplating whether what im doing is right or good?
how much time to i spend mulling over decisions, beating myself up, or just simply not moving forward...

when in reality i should be living in the knowledge of grace and truth.

its good to be learning again.
its refreshing and joyful.
and i like it.