im currently experiencing the effects of jet lag...

it feels nice to be home again.

life in czech was moving pretty fast before i took off.
as usual, the holiday season there too was full of parties, concerts and activities,
and before i left last week i attended a Christmas concert from one of the schools i have a relationship with and know quite a few students from.

for some reason, the song 'open the eyes of my heart' was apart of their program, in the midst of maybe 10 or 15 other classic Czech Christmas carols.

so here they were, 80 or so students singing 'open the eyes of my heart' in a packed church at noon on a thursday.
and there i was, standing at the back, watching as they swayed and sang and pronounced the unfamiliar english words ever so carefully.

and i had a vision of czech youth.

it seems like this moment was actually a perfect and beautiful and strange and tragic picture of czech students everywhere. singing along to words that are asking God for more, that are pleading with the Lord to reveal Himself to them, while not really having a grasp on what they are saying, and lacking the meaning or motivation behind it.

i felt like the whole generation of czech students flashed before my eyes, and i saw the state of their heart. so desperate for God, and so lacking in knowledge of who He is.

and then i realized thats actually the state of every single one of us.

and i was moved.