im back in the game!

no but seriously, i have been newly and freshly inspired by my time in america.
and im going to try and commit to blogging again.

im currently sitting in the lambert-st. louis international airport.
i honestly cant believe i have internet here, and im also not sure if maybe im stealing it?

i cant even tell you how many times ive been sitting in this airport, waiting for a flight, and pretty crucial times too.

but the past two weeks ive been loved on and encouraged and refreshed.
its been so much more 'normal' then i was expecting, and time in houston and in missouri was incredible.

on the practical side of things, the wedding in houston along with doctors appointments consumed most of my time there, but seeing friends from high school was so fun. those guys just really know how to have a good time.

and in my tour de' missouri i got to see pretty much everyone i wanted.
and i loved every minute of it.
especially the part where i got to see obama speak.
thats when i was reminded of how glad i am to be american! : )
im kind of joking here, but not really.
it was a pretty incredible experience to be surrounded by like 40000 people.

anyway, on my drive from emmas house on bacon to the airport, i began to contemplate the reality of returning to the czech.
its just a tough transition, and i had forgotten how good it is to be with people here. and how i have just been so completely exhausted with building new relationships and trying to sustain them that i have been utterly selfish in terms of trying to keep in touch with people from home.

ive realized that the people that are in my life in america are people that make me come alive.
they are people that love me and allow me to be who i am.

i thought it was about being known and understood,
but i think ive realized its actually not about that.

what its actually about is people who allow you to be that person that will probably never be understood.
its about people who allow you to flourish, not who stifle you and try to box you in, figure you out, and hold you to some kind of religious, social, political, or world expectations.

so my hope for my return to ostrava?
that i will remember the freedom that i experienced here.
that i wont be selfish with my time, but commit to keeping in touch, because while ive seen that relationships can be sustained through time and overseas, its just so much better to communicate.
and that i will love people better, deeper, and more genuinely by enabling them to flourish into who they are created to be.

praise God for life.
and fall trees.