so it was my birthday yesterday.
the big 23.

its funny because all day tuesday i was dreading wednesday.
it was like i just didn't want my birthday to happen at all. like i wanted to just skip over that day, and not see or talk to anyone.
im not really sure why either, maybe because i knew i wouldn't be celebrating with my family and get a yummy chocolate cake that my mom always cooks. or maybe its because i knew i wouldn't be having an ash bash. and by ash bash what i really mean is that i knew i wouldnt be surrounded by people who love me and know me and actually want to be with me.

i think i just kind of felt like i didnt want people to be forced to hang out with me if they didnt really want to or something.

BUT, it actually turned out to be a really good day.
my roommate organized this thing, and a bunch of people came over to our house to have coffee, tea and snacks.
it was just really cool to see all these people that i have known for less then a month to show up, for me.
not that its about me, but i just felt really loved.

God just kind of showed me a little piece of His love and His heart for me by giving me people who want to hang out.
i also kind of realized that even through i dont know these people here as well, and they dont "know" me that well either, they are people that i have been given the special opportunity to get to know and love and really invest in.

and thats something i should be excited about, not burdened by.

so thank you Lord, and my new friends in the czech republic for making me feel a little bit special and a lot bit loved.