gotta say mmm.

alright.
so ive been working on this paper for theology, and my topic is government.

its huge and overwhelming, and more work and information then what i was expecting, but i like it.
i like reading and writing and trying to form and put thoughts together to make sense.
i like challenging my brain.
but it hurts too,
its sometimes really hard for me to push through.

its like with running.
i went running yesterday with my roommate.
and the thing is, i LOVE running.
but, im not very good at pushing myself past my comfort zone.
like i know my legs can move faster, but i dont really want to make them.

and thats kind of how i feel with life right now.
stuck in this place of comfort.
wanting to be stretched.
wanting to feel the joy and the exhaustion of a life well lived.
but its hard.

and im missing intimacy with God.

but i have to say i LOVE this place called the czech republic.
absolutely and completely.
for all its faults and failures, for all its funny culture idiosyncrasies...
i LOVE it.